Whivit | Remote | Quiver | Mellow 'Quicksilver' | Scope | Aster | Mundoo
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Sorry for ... this, I don't know, I need to vent somewhere and honestly have no where to vent. Also partly want someone to READ it... just... I don't know.

Basically, I'm feeling depressed again, not actually depression but just 'blue' or whatever - or I guess it might be depression, I don't know. Doesn't matter... Basically the reason though is because I'm entirely alone in my life, I have literally no friends, at all. Literally. I don't have ONE friend. Just that thought is majorly depressing to me.

But even worse is that I have no way of FIXING that. I want friends so badly, you have no idea, but I have no way of getting friends. Like... where am I gonna go to find someone, to be friends with? How does everyone else do it? Uhg...

That also leads to a lot of hatred, towards other people, who I feel have it so easy and choose to complain anyhow. I mean they don't know they have it easy, in comparison, but still, I hate them SO MUCH... so much... I can't even verbalize it, it's beyond hatred and merges with jealousy. Because it really is unfair, they get these things so easily and take them for granted... the same things I try so hard for, and still can't get.

So... this makes me have little hope for the future... I don't know why, but it feels like I'm going no where, just stagnating.

Lol whatever...